It took a long time to realise that I burned out. This made me rethink my career, instead of examining my life.
I trained to become a health coach and yoga teacher followed by a certified women’s coach.
Again, I didn’t stop there as I continued to add more training and further courses. I still didn’t feel content with my achievements and continued my quest for more, as it still wasn’t enough.
I kept getting burnouts and my health deteriorated. I was diagnosed with CPTSD and a chronic health condition.
This time I was forced to look deeper and I began to connect the dot.
My childhood trauma was the root cause of being a Perfectionist, Tiger Mum, People-Pleaser and Superwoman.
I didn’t like myself and wanted to be something else. I was disconnected from myself.
This is what trauma does. It disconnects you from yourself, your true essence and your intuition. As a result you’re disconnected from the world around you and feel alone.
I tried to be something else because I didn’t like being me.
Where was the self-compassion in that, despite working as a helping professional with compassion as one of the main components?
The answer was, there was none.